sittin' on the fence

They have those Japanese wafflefish in Bugis now and they taste pretty good! I remember my daddy buying them for me to eat in the car while he ran errands after my Tumble Tots classes when I was little.

Scott is a sillybutt!! Heh. <3
That's all.

Oh no my Arabic finals are coming up soon and I have been spacing out this entire sem. 

My tongue is scalded. I asked my mum to make this oyster sauce macaroni I used to eat a lot as a kid and I was too greedy. My eyes as always are too big for my face.

I have nothing else of import to say except that FF is an internet pornstar named Savvy.

OH WAIT I DO! Tammy's entry reminded me of this - I always always giggle when I watch sexy music videos! I can't imagine how they film them. What do the directors have to say? "Smouldering look, open legs wider, bend over to show boobs- MAKEUP WE NEED MORE BRONZER ON THE BOOBS - put your hand right between your legs, that's nice, and let's take it from (insert ludicrous sexy lyric), and three, two, one ACTION!" I'd just die laughing. Especially since they have to lipsynch said lyrics at the same time lol.

The past two years have made me a lot better at arguing, but they've also made me find it a lot more tiresome. I don't get why some people are so... okay not abrasive, it sounds too negative. But why must they overthink everything! Some things aren't worth pursuing - to me at least. I have nothing to prove by winning a discussion of attrition.

I don't think a perpetually examined life is worth living. Take anything to its logical extreme and it stops making sense. Life is made up of colourful contradictory bits that make things interesting. You wouldn't enjoy anything if you ponder over it too long.

I love my oddity of a boyfriend, but why must he be such a skeptic-fundamentalist?!

Ho hum, I wanted to go out for a jog but my idiotic sister scared me by insisting I'd get raped and killed. Given my neighbourhood and the number of times I've gone out for a run at this time before, it's probably an irrational fear.. but enough to keep me in.

School holidays have been pretty great. December has been a far cry from the exciting summer hols which were marked by adrenaline-filled globetrotting (and testing out emergency healthcare systems around the world), but it's been really good in a different way. All my backpacking plans fell through this time, but I got more than my fair share of travel during the summer so I'm not complaining. It also means I've gotten a good rest, while getting the chance to pick up some stuff I love again, like classical music.. it's been fulfilling yet very restful, which is nice..

I'm bored now though.. I can't get to sleep - I turned in (to my own bed) at 3am this morning to wake up at 5pm on my sister's bed clutching an open copy of Locke on Human Understanding... like urhhhhhh.... hahaha I must have gotten up and tried to start on it but I don't remember. Well anyway yeah that's about 14 hours of sleep so obviously I'm not sleepy now and I've got nothing to dooo that doesn't involve waking everyone up and I don't feel like reading anymore.

I'll be in Malaysia for the next couple of days.... urghhh really Do Not Want!! Be back on Monday. Another concert coming up! And a drunken picnic. Mmmm.

Oohhhh welllllll. Happy holidays everyone :) don't overeat (I sure did)

My very own Victorinox blade!
(And a laptop cooling fan so I don't perch it on the edge of my sofa anymore -.- He got annoyed with me cause I kept saying I didn't want to buy a cooling fan haha)
But anyway I have my own Swiss army knife now <3 I'm so excited to open it and try it out.
Seriously who needs roses and diamond rings:D

I got him a book from the Natural History Museum in London.

Anyway we just went for Steffi's christmas dinner tonight. Food was GOOD and plenty:D Thanks Steffi! Played with her ginormous furball cats and the Pleo which is damn freaking cool. And her GIGANTIC bear-like labradoodle (which has got Scott pleading for a huge dog in our house in the future - spare me, I'd rather breed children).

ARGH I CAN'T FIND MY GLASSES

I swear I nearly peed my pants laughing when someone showed me this last night.



Modern classical music.... totally don't get it!

Today, I was rereading The Sorcerer's Stone. I read that in the snow, Fred and George were enjoying throwing snowballs at the back of Quirrell's turban. I realized that that would mean they were actually hitting Voldemort in the face. Fred and George just got a lot more awesome.

Hahahahahahahahahaha. 
Or rather, HA 1100. FF!

And can someone please explain why Ron and Hermione named their kids Rose and Hugo? I get the R and H thing. And Rose is a flower name like Lily? But Hugo? Hugo reminds me of Victor Hugo, who reminds me of Viktor Krum. Why would Ron sort of name his kid after Hermione's ex boyfriend? Huh.

As you can tell I'm being very productive these holidays:D

And you know, seeing one of the best Egyptian collections in the world in the Vatican City doesn't impress me. I think it just raises in any reasonable man the question - WHAT'S IT DOING HERE? If I want to see an Egyptian museum, I'd go to Egypt. History belongs in its home, not in the hands of descendants of conquests long over.

Could I also add how relieved I am that I planned the trip to England a lot earlier? Can't imagine what our trip would've been like if we'd been caught in the snowstorm.

Hello! Back from Malaysia, don't think I'll be going overseas again these holidays. Have been seeing Manda Lin and Aki loads <3 Very excited for Steffi's christmas dinner party :D Nothing much else to say. Yeah I know I intended to blog about London, Oxford, Liverpool, Bath, Stonehenge and Salisbury but I feel lazy.

HUNGRY.

Omg Tammy just showed me this trailer on youtube, They are so cute I want to die. The Namibian and Mongolian babies are the cutest! I would like one of each please. No need to gift wrap.

Reason, or the pursuit of truth through logic, is not something that has to be attained above all. Rather, the lack of it is just a cost to consider when we make decisions. Sometimes the consequences of being unreasonable are too severe - but sometimes it is tolerable, or even necessary to neglect logic. While living life ignoring reason may be childish or immature, a life in sole pursuit of ideals such as absolute truth is probably equally selfish.

And that is what I think. A commitment to truth, reason, logic, whatever, should be subject to a cost-benefit analysis.. just like every other decision I make. That's all.

So lovely.. :) you must watch.



First crushes... I can't remember mine though, probably because it was the sort of memory I used to try and repress. What a pity!

Yay for the new layout! It's based on Dracula. If you're bored, you should read it :) Ballet starts in 5 hours. I've spent the whole night trying to sleep but it's simply not working. I guess this is what happens when you wake up at 2pm. Yes I've tried to shift my waking up earlier and earlier over the past few days and it has sort of worked... but today, the plan failed miserably. So, I don't think I'm going for class.


The other day I went shopping at Times and came back with the third instalment of the Genghis Khan series by Iggulden. Genghis died in this one so I'm not sure if I want to read the fourth and final part of the series. I also found a gem--the complete Sherlock Holmes novels and short stories in one book. I've read most of it before in bits and pieces so it's a nice volume to have to... pass on to future generations.


Yes, I love reading about the most famous fictional detective in the English-speaking world. So coming into possession of all the works about him has been the highlight of my holiday so far.


There's something surreal about driving alone along Bedok Road at 3am. Did you know that right there, on that road connecting Greg's place to mine, that someone's death was borne from the sighting of an old lover? Greg and I agreed awhile ago, based on our memory, that the case is PP v. Tan Cheng Eng William. Anyway the "something surreal" is not a spooky feeling. It's the unbridled sensation of speed. Freedom, I think. Unfettered by the safety of nobody but yourself.


I quite admire Lady Gaga. Seldom do you come across a solid musician with overflowing creativity in all areas--dance, fashion, and arrangement. She has so much flair and stage presence too. Many mainstream singers seem very bland when compared to her.

ho hum, once in awhile you find a song that speaks to you in such volumes.. I'm so glad someone sent me this song I've been listening to it non-stop. it's always such a strange sensation to hear someone else sing or speak about something you thought no one else but you would ever feel

anyway I hope I stop being like this

faith is home. she baked brownies. good ones

the crosstrainer at the gym says ".. if you feel tired ... please stop using this machine immediately and seek medical attention"

and on another note.. does anyone want to watch avatar with me? why does no one seem to wanna watch it :( I'm surprised everyone seems to think it's a "nerd movie". in theory I've got no issues with watching movies alone but in practice .... it's just no fun!!! boo

I have sort of decided what to do with the next couple of weeks. Peripheral activities will include sporadic social events and music-related activities, but the bulk of my focus shall hopefully be on 1. running and 2. re-sharpening mental faculties.

Wrt #1, I have been running... a lot. You could think of it as making up for all my lack of physical activity in the past, so anyone who knew me then would agree that I have a lot to make up for :p Barring concert and rehearsal days, my days have been planned around runs. Some people seem to find running therapeutic; this is definitely not the case for me. I still hate the process, although not as much as before. But it is rewarding and rather fun to see the numbers on the scale drop in accordance with the amount of exercise you did and what you ate in the day.. I've never had control over this aspect of my life before, and for now I get a kick out of being able to accurately predict my weight the next morning down to the nearest fifty grams. For example, I declared today a well-deserved "eat whatever the fuck you like" day for myself, but am going to attempt the 6th avenue hill when my stomach settles down. If I succeed I'd say my weight tomorrow morning will be the same as it was this morning and no more (I still didn't eat much more than usual). We shall see... heheh. (update: uh huh exactly the same!)

As for #2, I am sick of thinking, "wow, I've gotten stupider" with every birthday that passes -_- I've given myself a lot of excuses for letting go and leading an increasingly unexamined life, but the only one that was really valid was that it made me unbearably depressed as I rarely reached any favourable or productive conclusions. Now that I seem to be better at handling my emotional well-being and no longer as prone to analysis paralysis, I see no reason to continue floating around life. I know much too little about the things I was once so interested in, and my capacity to process such information has degenerated to an unacceptable level. I say it is time to do something about this fluffiness once and for all. I have started by borrowing a few key books to refresh myself on reasonable thought, one of them being "Bad Thoughts" by Jamie Whyte (on clear thinking, bogus reasoning, debate etc).

That's settled then. I feel... hopeful.

SOME IDIOT IS DRUMMING AWAY AT HIS DRUM SET AND THE EXTREMELY ECHO-EY NOISE IS DISTURBING EVERYONE WITHIN A 400M RADIUS. IT'S NOT EVEN MUSIC. Just like how this morning I was rudely awakened by some other neighbour idiot upstairs or something (who knows, it may be the same one) DRILLING away at 9am. And now I can hear some other neighbour in a block faraway sawing wood or a tree or whatever.

What do some people do at home?!

Ahem.

Anyway a few weeks ago it was my birthday and within 1 hour of midnight, I had eaten two slices of birthday cake from my mother and Greg respectively :) Greg was camping downstairs with the cake and HIS GUITAR. He serenaded me with I'm Yours!!!!!! :DDDDDD Enough said haha. Wheeeeee.

Last Monday I got back from the PJ dance festival thingy (I'm still not sure what the official name of the event is) and it was fun! All the other international dance groups were pros or pre-pros (unlike us part-time dance students >.<) and did PDDs from Swan Lake and Blue Bird and stuff like that. The Japs were really something. Even the (skinny) students had an air of confidence and professionalism about them. Sigh. And here I am resigned to my fate as a blob of fat while I suck my clients' money in the future. Mehhh.

For now, I am recovering from the then-it-didn't-seem-so-much kahlua I had last night at B's, courtesy of Greg. I woke up at 330pm and am feeling unusually tired. I don't know if it's because of all the noise from my neighbours or the kahlua, actually.

can't believe there's only two more weeks to school. kill me.

Anyway, I wonder if there are underground supper clubs here in sg. i bet there is somewhere out there, and all i need to do is to google it online. It's nice meeting people for the first time under casual seating, where everyone enters in with the same open mindset of getting to know strangers better over a nice meal in someone's homely house. While i have to admit, i get intimidated by large crowds where people seem to know each other already, i rather get to know a small group of max 8 strangers better. To more much...naturally? I don't know if i'm even making sense.

Some nice places visited the past week (courtesy of hui for the first two):
1) old brown shoe - finally I know how apple cider tastes like. Now i know why one of my collegues in MTI always have a bottle apple cider by this desk.
2) onceuponamilkshake.com.sg - omg the first strawberry flavoured ice-cream i actually love.
3) ang siang road - hahaha eh lu, ff! it changed quite a lot since we last went there
4) zirca - eh quite horrible music
5) $5 outing to habourfront and NUS PGP hostel

checklist of holiday things to do:

1. contacted more schools, but dammit. the progress is so slow
2. To do up the b-plan
3. to call up auntie
4. to set up wix and domain etc
5. to email out to more schools/other places

National Geography photography contest:
ngm.nationalgeographic.com/photo-contest/past-winners

On bad planning:

... I just had the most idiotic run ever. It was meant to be a nice, slow post-concert wind-down thing but omg. I totally fucked myself over.. think mental preparation for 3-4km (admirable enough, it's me okay) to find out the distance is more like 6 instead??! Haha. Running with no clue when you'll hit your destination: a really unpleasant feeling. I ended up stopping along the way for a drink (didn't bring a water bottle), after which I was too sian to continue so I defeatedly hopped on a bus.. to find out I was only one bus stop away from where I was going. Lol. And then it immediately started pouring and I ended up drenched and very cold. I'm finally home now, even more tired than ever. Blarrrghhh.

I've also got nothing to do for the next two weeks. Exams and various rehearsals kept me so busy that I kept putting off planning the last two weeks of my holidays.. now it's finally here and facing me like this looming chasm, sigh. There are random social activities here and there but really.. no central activity or motivation. Really got to settle that soon or I'm going to go crazy. I don't why people keep telling me to relax and just "take time off".. I still have to do something with my time right. And I cannot bring myself to spend my holidays watching TV or playing WoW (COUGH kevin01yukee) and stuff like that, even though that's what everyone else seems to be doing. Such a bloody waste of time you guys!!! Haha. Tsk.

Why didn't I plan all of this earlier... bleaurgh. I've got a vague idea of what I'm going to do over the next couple weeks (involves better-planned runs, dragging SX to the gym and a lot of music/books), but it's nowhere near as productive as it could have been. Maybe I really do need to relax and take it slow.. I might thank myself for it when the semester starts eh.

Bored. Scott and Lin are both working. Nad and FF are overseas. I've been stuck at home reading/ supervising the repairman fix our phone lines for the 32874127857857749497th time/ catching up on GG and UB, or being dragged around by my family as their laptop/ phone/ know-all slave to spend money that has an expiry date.

Time's going by so fast! Definitely not looking forward to anything school-related happening:( The trip to England was great because it kind of made me forget I was in law school. Okay, I forget that every holiday, and occasionally during the school term too, but being further away made it seem even more remote, like some fuzzy nightmare.

Holidays would be a good time to have a breather and take stock of your life but ever since uni started all I've been doing is forget about the minor calamity that is my academic career the second I've had a chance to and be dragged kicking and screaming once my free time is up.

I guess, academically and otherwise, I've never really had to try much for anything I've wanted, so it's much harder forcing myself to try for something don't even want. Sian.

And bogged down by lack of contentment generally.Aki and I had a HTHT (it sounds like an HTC phone model, srsly) commiserating with each other after lunch with us four (with boyfriends who attended at different times haha). Our education having dictated a similar ascension on the social ladder (though I suppose mine more drastically than hers), we find it hard to comprehend the, uh.. idiosyncracies of the privilleged people we now find ourselves classified with, even the nicest and most well-meaning of them. Some people have everything handed to them on a platter and their lives just go from easy to easier.

Sigh. Okay mum bugging me to add London photos to FB. I should never have let her get FB. She spends all her waking hours on it now,

Disgraceful. I'm not watching BPL again till they win a match. This is getting embarrassing.